It Wasn't Suppose to Happen......

When Brandon and I decided to hook up it was suppose to be for just sex. But as time goes on I'm finding myself falling for him. We talk alot on the phone ( 3 to 5 times a day), with his schedule and his "leash" ( thats what he calls her) thats about all we are allowed. We do get together about once a week, which I treasure. Everytime we talk I find myself wanting to say I LOVE YOU, but am I dunno maybe afraid of what he might think. Then awhile back he asked me if we were gonna be "exclusive to each other", I kinda studdered around on that one, only cuz I know he does do her from time to time. How was I suppose to respond to that? I did tell him honestly that I wasn't out looking, and that I wouldn't go out looking. I feel like I'm losing my mind. Am I wrong to feel this way about him? I mean I know we all know getting into this that they have someone at home but is it right to fall hard for him, like i think I have. I'm just so confused!

alwaysacarnie alwaysacarnie
26-30, F
Mar 23, 2009