Not Quite Yet
I can't actually say I'm in love with him, but I do have serious feelings for him. There are two problems: one, I am married, but I don't know for how long. and two, he is a LOT younger than me.
I am 39 and he is 20. That is a pretty big difference. Even if I were single, I would be rather nervous about starting something with him, as much as I care about him. I'm afraid he would get tired of me, or end up wanting more than what I do at this point in my life, and where would it end up then? I do know he talks about having kids someday, and I also know that I feel like I am already done having my kids...I honestly can't imagine having any more at my age. We are getting closer and closer every day, and I just don't know if I should put a stop to it now, and try to remain friends before it goes too far for that, or see what happens. I want to be with him so much. And from what I can tell, I think he is feeling the same way too. But, he's also not the kind of guy who's going to try to start up an affair, he's going to want to know it's over in my marriage first. I just don't know what to do.