Torn

I went through the same thing as well. My first boyfriend and I were together for about a year when I started to like one of my best friends. My bf at the time was sweet, kind, and caring but at the sametime something was lacking. I convinced myself that I loved my bf and started to hate myself for the feelings I had for my best friend. I knew at this time that the love I felt for my bf at the time was a different kind of love that I felt for my best friend. But I told myself that I would never hurt my first boyfriend for my own selfishness. Then one day my best friend was asking for advice on what to do about the girl he liked but she was in a relationship. I told him to tell her, take the chance to be happy and risk it. He told her.

And here I am deeply in love with my fiance and best friend. Sometimes things have to go wrong first in order to go all so right. You have to do what is best for you even when it is so hard at times. Its not fair to him or to you to be in a relationship that isn't fully committed. It truly broke my ex's heart and it hurt so much to see him like that but you have to believe that everything happens for a reason and he will move on with his life and he will find that love that you found for your special person. If I didn't break up with my first boyfriend I would have never been this happy or content.

My fiance and best friend is now serving our country as a Marine and our relationship couldn't be stronger, the love we feel for each other will make it through anything and we can accomplish everything together. I still feel a little guilty to this day for what I did to my ex but I have to believe that he will get though it. And to this day I am oh so happy for the risk my Marine took to tell me his feelings and the painful break up I went though was well worth the happiness I recieved.



Do what you think is best in your heart. Your heart will never lead you astray sweetie. This is your life. you deserve to be happy and so do your friends so take the chance, take the risk to be happy and you never know.... Things might work out better then you ever thought possible. Reach for the stars and find your happiness!



If anybody ever needs to talk, I am always here (this is kinda stupid for putting my email out in the open but its well worth it)

Lilly~tennisdork17 @ hotmail.com

may love and happiness find you all! <3

I feel Exactly the same... I have been with my boyfriend for 5yrs (since i was 19) and we recently took a break and I met someone..and I dont know what Im doing.. My boyfriend and I are back together and I love him more than anyone, but I am not in love with him...but I know it will kill him if I left..I have no idea what to do...and girl sometimes we have to be selfish,,its our life and we only live once..im sure none of this helped but It helped me to know someone else out there is going through the same thing..

My heart goes out to you. I have not had this kind of experience yet, but I think that the healthiest thing for you to do is explain things to your boyfriend, tell him that you no longer see him as a lover but as a friend. You are not being selfish, youve spent your teenage years with this one guy , it is natural for you to want to see what else is out there., Your so young! You have only one life, you shold go out and experience, becouse thats what makes us learn even if some events make us hurt. It is only part of Life. Be honest with yourself and your boyfriend. Go out,seek new things, move on and LIVE.