I Am In Love With My Best Friend
I know this sounds stupid buy its true. Theres this girl am i just crazy for shes my best freind ever for one thing. Heres the basics she is basically my dream girl ....and for someone reason she dosent hate me like even i do. She says she see's me like a big brother though she says she'd go out with me if she wasn't seeing someone. She's bassicaly a dream come true...except she has a boyfreind. He lives in florida ...and is 6 years older than her. I know he's a good guy proboaly but i cant help feeling like i do for her. she knows i like her but she has no idea how strongly i feel for her. its killing me that i cant be with her like i wish i could i wish i could tell her how i really feel but i could never do that to her. Plus i know she'd be happy with her boyfreind. ITS DRIVING ME INSANE. i litteraly cant sleep at night...well less than i ussualy do..which isnt much 2 begin with. I cant take anymore. i am totaly wild about her but i know it will never be. anyone know what i could do....i mean besides cry myself to sleep every night..join the army......or load up on pills. Every time we speak i fall for her more and at the end she says she loves me (in a best friend sense i guess) and i say it back ....the problem is that i'm actually in love with her and cant tell her. Then theres the whole i have no choice thing as much as i wish i could tell her I know if i do it wont change anything. It kills me that her boyfriend is going to visit her before i can...i suppose it wouldnt be as bad if he wasnt 6 yeards older than her...to be honest thats one of the things that bugs me most.