Her Love, My DrugI am really in love with her. It’s everything about her that I like and love. I wish I could express in words how much I love her, but no words are passionate and deep enough to explain how much she means to me. She is my best friend, which is totally awesome! :D
When I’m with her, nothing else matters. Time stops. Everything fades away. And all I have, all I need, is right before me, in the figure of a beautiful angel. She makes my heart light up and want to dance! I feel like she is my real first true love.
I met her about 3 months ago. It’s actually an interesting story. I was a junior. I had a crush on a freshman boy. I eventually gathered the courage to get in his life. He was my first partner. I met his friends. Then I met her. She was close friends with him. I figured I would become her friend so I wouldn’t have to feel awkward talking to just his guy friends. She seemed to be the shy, quiet type. She wasn’t the girly type either. I instantly thought she was really adorable, a pure beauty! In my mind, I thought of her as my doll. I could girly her up and make her my best bud! Well that didn’t exactly happen. Although she is very quiet, once you get to know her, she is actually very mature and thoughtful for a young person. I admired her. I would sometimes just watch her, wanting to know what she was thinking. We turned out to be opposites in personality. But somehow, in a very interesting way, we just meshed perfectly together and became best friends. I left my crew of junior friends to get to know her better. Coincidentally, she is also my neighbor. She lives a block away, about a 5 minute walk. This thrilled me because I never had a best friend who lived close by. I never had a neighbor who was also a friend. From then on we hung out almost all the time.
Long story short, I started falling for her. She was bi, but I never realized it. However, I believe my girl instincts felt that guyish aura in her. Anyways, she told me she was bi. I started exploring that department as well. I ended up falling for her. My relationship with my boyfriend was whacko, so I ended it with him. I confessed I liked her, 2 days before I left my boyfriend. Even though things went really fast, I had this gut feeling that I knew this was the right path. I wasn’t confused at all. I was falling for her. I wanted to be hers.
As of today, we have been together for about two weeks. We’ve only been together for a short time, yet I feel like we’ve known each other forever. I love spending time with her. We can just sit together and do nothing, yet I would be so happy. It’s everything about her that makes me smile. Sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve her. Like I’m too happy, and I shouldn’t be. But then I just take advantage of the time I have with her and stop wasting time questioning my happiness. It’s hard to explain what it is about her that makes me feel so in love. She is a mystery. I am always learning new things about her. When I’m with her, I can be my weird self. She never judges me. I believe her every word. I trust her with all my heart. I would do anything for her. Her smile makes my heart flutter. She means so much to me. I wish I could be with her forever. I want everything for her: love, happiness, and more…much more.
KittyxGummyBear 18-21, F 2 Jun 18, 2011