I Don't Even Know!

I was hanging out with a friend of mine when her friend came along. I'm a friendly person (to friendly people) so I introduced myself. We'd only known each other 5 minutes but she went off and we wound up talking for 3 hours. He walked with me and the conversation was intellectual and stimulating. He was funny and I could tell he liked me. I liked him too. We had so much in common. Every time we'd see each other we'd have a long conversation and lose track of time. He'd always behave like a gentleman and we'd have fun but after a while scintillating conversation wasn't enough.

And then as it turns out, he liked someone else, even started dating her. I felt like the biggest fool. I still do. He wouldn't return my calls or reply my texts and he only calls or texts me when he wants advice or when he wants something. I deleted his number from my phone and swore I wouldn't call or text him and guess what, 2 months down the line he called once. For advice with his girlfriend.

He was my best friend for a while and I don't even know what happened and why he's changed. Maybe I just liked him. And after seeing his girlfriend I felt like I didn't even stand a chance with him in the first place. I guess I should never have thought that a girl like me could ever stand a chance with a guy like him.

He asks me for advice on how he can fix his relationships and I actually help him because he's my friend. And he thanks me and calls me wise and smart and classy and I can't tell him that it hurts me and that I don't want... He was the first person I ever met in a long time who understood me and didn't put me down or label me or treat me like crap.

I think I'm in love with my best friend. But he's in love with someone else. And I'm on the sidelines pretending I'm fine. Like I always have.
shelonely shelonely
18-21, F
2 Responses Jan 8, 2013

You should add me on bbm, skype, oovoo or anything else tht ure on and we cn tlk more nd ill try to help u

Same name?

Its mariabutterflies29 for oovoo and shenaemaria for skype.

Heyy well it soounds like you're in the friend zone since hes always asking you for advice on other relationships. You need to let him know how you feel though and that you dont feel comfortable just being available for giving advices. You have feelings too and your own life.

I've tried but... he always has this look on his face and... that's why I say I can't. That's why I deleted all his contacts, facebook and everything.