How Could It Be?!

So it didn't occur to me until around December of '08 that me and my friend "D" were super close and got along even better than we had in the past. We've been friends since the beginning of '06 and he is now my closest friend, out of guys and girls. We are soooo much alike and get along fantastically that we say we're "soultwins" (because of how differen't we look yet act exactly alike). He's close to a few girls and that never really bothered me, until recently. He's still close to his exgfs and that's fine, but sometimes it feels like I may be getting jealous. I have never been the jealous type, not even close. So I found it really odd that I have these feelings with only him. One day I started thinking more about why I was feeling like that and realized that ever since he went to a college down south, in early January, we've talked every single day, whether it be on Aim, Myspace, Facebook, or the phone. We tell each other almost everything and have no trouble talking for over 3 hours on the phone, during the day or night. I feel the most comfortable when I'm around him and can just be myself. After I pondered that for a bit, I got scared. Scared that I may have fallen in love with my closest friend. As of right now, I have no idea what I should do. Most of the time I'd just try to forget about these feelings and go on as normal. But what if I'm missing out on a wonderful relationship?  Or, what if my having deeper feelings ruins our amazing friendship?  I would not want to jeopardize our friendship, ever. I really want to let him know, but I don't know if I'm prepared for the truth, especially if the feeling isn't mutual. 

Advice, comments, criticsm...etc. would all be appreciated. =]

springbubbles springbubbles
18-21, F
1 Response Feb 20, 2009

I know exactly how you feel. I am going through the same situation as we speak. The only difference is that my guy friend and I have been friends ever since we were eight years old.