Wat Now!!! I Cant Go On

it started in 7th grade when i meant one of my teachers and i thought about him all the time non stop hes amazing to me hes everything i could ever dream for and we talk all the time and we have everything in common hes not the best looking guy but hes so funny we do all kinds of things together (as friendssad) . anyway one day after class he had a meeting and he got done early but i was in his room cuz i was having a bad day crying and everything cuz of family things.. but miss..... thought the room wood be empty so i sat there fora while well he came in and i was crying and writing in my book thing i do but i didnt no he was there so i was writing wat was really happening at my house not wat i told the counselor. and he was reading it i realized he  was there when a tear hit my paper and it wasnt mine! i looked up and he was crying cuz of me he said he felt bad i had to live with that and everything. he wishes he could stop it but i made him promise not to say anything he did thats when i went to leave and he hugged me not like a friend hug but how i hug my ex-boyfriend with my head on his chest and and everything. we started hanging out more. and he wood buy me things and ild stay after school he put his hand on mine and tell me as long as im with him nothing wood ever go wrong>>>heart 

then... two days ago he was on his wat to pick me up cuz we were going to go for a run and crying he was hit by another truck and was pronounced dos(dead on scean)cryingcrying!!! i went to the funeral today.... and the school was cleaning out his room and his friend another teacher new we were close like friends so he let me come get afew things of his i found notes he took of mine when i was in his class and ones e wrote to me and neve gavev me and all my papers and my school picture i gave him in his desk away from all the other kids and everything i started crying right then and there



IDK wat im going to do with out him he loved me and everything i loved him we never acted on it or anything i new thats wrong but still just the thought of im feeling the same way

cunfuzeled cunfuzeled
13-15, F
2 Responses Aug 3, 2010

Oh goodness sweetie. First of all I just want to tell you how deeply sorry I am for your loss. I am kinda going through the same thing you are. Just know that he loved you sweetie, even though you didnt act on it.

Oh goodness sweetie. First of all I just want to tell you how deeply sorry I am for your loss. I am kinda going through the same thing you are. Just know that he loved you sweetie, even though you didnt act on it.