My Story.Sorry for the pretty lame title. :S
I guess I should introduce myself first. I'm Marissa, I'm 17 years old, I'm a senior, and I have a crush on my history teacher.
I first met him my sophomore year of high school, he was my study hall teacher. When I first met him I couldn't stand him, at all. He was a cocky, self-centered, big-headed jerk! I'm sorry for being so rude but he was. Every girl in the girl had a crush on him and they still do! I was probably the only girl that didn't like him. I couldn't stand people that were full of themselves. It's not like he ever paid any attention to me, I'm the quiet, innocent type, that never gets in trouble. Let's just say my sophomore year sucked!
My junior year wasn't much better. I had him again for study hall, but this time I also had him for history. To be honest, I don't know what happened but I ended up falling for him. At first I started getting those little "signs" you get when you're around your crush. You know, the little heart racing, hands clamming up, breathtaking, signs every time he was around. I kept telling myself, don't fall for him, you're just going to get hurt. Well that's exactly what happened, I ended up falling for him and he ended up getting a girlfriend. There's been way too many experiences that happened between him & I but I'm almost sure you guys wouldn't want to read about them. It'll probably bore you. Aha.
I remember this one time during one of the pep-rally's. I'm in the marching band and it was homecoming. Well at the end of the school day we held this huge pep-rally during fourth block. They asked the marching band to perform so that's what we did. During our performance I glanced at my teacher, we'll just call him, Mr. M, he was staring at me and I quickly glanced away. When I looked back up he was still looking at me. That's when I thought to myself, "What the heck?" Later on I just thought, "Oh maybe he was watching you because you're his student."
Almost every day in his class I would catch him looking at me. When I caught him he would always look away quickly. I remember one day when I looked up at him he was giving me this weird blank ex
This was the moment I found out he was seeing someone. Mr. M was going around passing out papers and some boy in the class said to him, "Hey, I saw you yesterday walking into your house with some girl. Is she your girlfriend?" When asked that I felt my heart drop. I was like, of course. What the crap were you thinking Marissa? He's this really attractive guy, and you're just, well you. Like he would ever feel the same about you. I looked up at him waiting for him to answer and he looked at me. He stared at me for a few good seconds before saying to the boy, "Shh. You need to get started on your work." That night I went home and cried. It hurt so freaking much! A few days after this happened we were having a discussion in his class about something. Well he was trying to put it into something we would understand, he looked over at me & said, "Its like when you and your boyfriend break up. When they find someone new, you're not going to like that person very much. Are you?" He stared right at me and I shook my head. He looked down at his hands, shook his head, & said, "I'll be back in a few minutes." He didn't come back for another 10 minutes. I'm not sure what happened. I just know right after that happened I felt weird, like I didn't feel like myself.
Towards the end of the semester, right before our classes changed we were doing this study review for his class. Mr. M was at his podium right in front of our desks grading papers. I was paired up with this one guy and we were already finished. We started talking about random things. He said to me, "I saw you with your boyfriend today." Right when the word, boyfriend, left his lips Mr. M quickly turned his head and looked at me. I glanced up at him and stared at me. He stared right into my eyes. He gave me this weird ex
That was almost 6 months ago. Now, this one guy likes me a lot and I like him too but I'm just not sure if I want to date him. I told my friends how I felt about Mr. M about a month ago. Well yesterday I was talking to Jordyn about him and she said that she talked with Mr. M's brother and found out Mr. M's single. I'm not sure if it's true or not but to be honest, I don't feel like going down that road again. I'm finally starting to get over him and move on. I just can't take the pain. It killed me when I found out he was seeing this other teacher. I literally broke down. I mean, I didn't harm myself in any way or anything like that.
I'm just not sure what to do. The guy that likes me is so sweet but I'm just scared of falling for someone again. I really hate feeling this way.
I apologize if nothing I wrote made any sense. I am a horrible writer! :(
Thanks for reading.
WhatIKnow 16-17 4 Responses 1 Jul 22, 2011