Sir, I Am So In Love With You.I am done with being in denial. I spent the summer lying to myself, kidding myself that I didn't love him anymore. Well, here I am giving that denial up. I still love him with everything I have, with all that I am. He is my every breath, my every heartbeat, my every thought. He is my favourite word.
You do not understand my urge to tell him everything every time he's in my view. You do not understand my need to touch him when he is near. He is like an anchor.
I realise the tightrope I'm walking, with my feelings getting so unbearably strong; but I can't erase him. It would kill me to ignore him, to pretend he's not there. It would hurt him too; and that is something I could never do. I wouldn't be able to live with myself.
I love him in so many ways. He's my best friend, he's my rock. In some ways, he's like a brother; other times he acts like a father. Above all, he is my pain, my salvation, my happiness, my hopelessness- my love. He is the very source of my love.
With every dream of him and with every sleepless night, I hold him dearer and dearer.
I love his appearance. His dark, perfectly messy hair. His sweet, deep, chocolate-coloured eyes. His soft, lightly tanned skin.
I love his personality. The way he's so caring, so loving. The way he's so empathetic. The way he understands me. The way he hasn't given up his childhood completely; playfighting and teasing. The way he sarcastic at the worst of times. The way he makes jokes about everything.
Most of all?
I love the crushing, painful grip you have on my heart.