Oh My Beautiful Techer, I Miss Him.Well this is going to take a while to type. ill share everything i can think of:)
Well it all started this year.
I'm 14, going to be 15 in January.(A month from now). Well my first day of school wasn't that amazing, I started a couple days late and i didn't know anyone besides a very good friend but she was too busy with her new friend. My third class that day I had him. Hes a science teacher. the very first time i saw him i was light omg hes sexy! :) (I have a thing for older men). He has short dark hair. brown eyes and the most amazing smile in this universe. I have a thing for smiles too! oh and hes also really tall :) I sat in front next to a creepy student......he always asks the teacher very odd questions and is mentally retarded. anyway....he teaches environmental science. which i was and still am very happy to be in that class no matter who teaches it. I love nature and he dose too. every day in class i smile watching his moves and who he stares at (which my the way he always stars at me.) the first week or so i wondered how old he was he looks no older than 25 but....hes about 39 :) I KNOW ALMOST 40! and he has a wife who teaches Spanish at the same school. i never see them together though... Hes really into watching clips and movies which i enjoy very much because he turns the lights off and closes all the blinds except one which is shining on me (I sit in the same spot every day) there is a work table right next to my desk and he sits there going through papers and looking at me (At least in my direction) while i pretend to watch the movie and look at him and thank god the light hits me from the back so you cant really see my face...I try to find every excuse to go up to his desk and talk to him and ask questions... and sometimes during my wood shop class when I'm not doing anything i do work for that class just so i can go turn it in when hes not doing anything.Every day i cant wait to see him even if i dont have his class that day i still really want to go to school just in case we pass by each other walking places at school.literally it MAKES MY WHOLE DAY just to see him I'm so happy. but when the day is over and i have to take the bus home I miss him, i miss him every second I'm not with him. Every time we are in class and hes talking to the whole class and hes up in front its like hes trying so hard to get close to me without it being noticeable. also i noticed he set a stool next to my desk(Which made me so happy) and he sits there when were watching a video. or someone is giving a presentation. when the lights are on and the class is busy doing there work sometimes i lift my head up to see if hes looking and when i see him look down as i look at him its amazing it makes me so happy. when i talk to him he smiles so big, its amazing i think he really likes to talk to me. I'm not sure if he likes me but I'm not stupid and I'm not going to tell him unless hes leaving or I graduate. Honestly i look forward to the day when I'm 18 I'm not in school and i go to his class after school and tell him how i feel, i dont really expect anything to happen as he has a wife and 2 kids which i think he loves.(He should). but just in case, I have to tell him.we aren't SUPER close as it has only been a semester sense we have known each other but i feel like I know him and i really really really think i just might love him and if its not love, it still makes my very happy and its a HUGE crush :). Over time we are talking more and more and he hasn't really been mean to me. in class everyone seems to like him but none of the girls really ever go up and ask questions so i dont think any of them like him. Its kinda like me and him are the only 2 people in the room but there are statues that chatter to each other behind me. I always day dream and fantasize about him during class at home. well lets face it HES ALWAYS ON MY MIND 24/7...Hes really funny too and when he makes jokes not a lot of people seem to get it but i certainly do.. hes so funny oh and i just cant get over that smile..Im quite sad that its winter break and I'm not seeing him as often but at least its not like SUMMER! omg what am I gonna do!!!???My life would be so much different if i didn't know him. he is my life. feel free to reply maybe tell me if you have a crush on a teacher? or maybe some advice?
Love Sharaya :)