I Just.... Can't Even Anymore.Today we had a fieldtrip. He drove our bus. For the pass two days I have COMPLETELY ignored him... It hurts so bad. :/
So I tried my hardest not to look at him and my friend watched him cautiously to see if anything happened... Well things did. He kept looking at me through the mirror on the bus and it looked like he s trying to get my attention. And then before we got off the bus I said, "I don't know why, but older guys are just so much more attractive. Maybe it's there authority...." I kinda laughed at the end and my friend was like, "you always get the guys you like, so why even try for this guy?" And I smiled and looked straight at Mr.S before we got off and said, "cause he's actually worth the try." I swear he smiled before I got off and I just could be more happy I got it off my chest.
During the last bus ride I kinda fell asleep but woke up and noticed he was staring at me. So I starting staring at him and he did so too and he would smile and nod a bit and look away and I would blush. Gahhhhhh he is soooo cute! And when I got off everyone was saying thanks to him for driving the bus and I was the last to get off so I was like, "Thanks..." And I looked straight at him and he was like, "no problem Rach..." And it was kinda awkward so he called after this girl who had cough drops (the poor baby is sick :/) and I just scooted away.
I was just so sad the past to days that when I got inside I lost it.... I started crying and everything. :/
Oh and yesterday he barely paided ANY attention to me and would even look at me so I decided to do the same! And we'll I think he kinda took notice... I'm trying to get teh courage to ask him if I can transfer to a different class. I hate/love being in his class but I can't concentrate on anything BUT him... Ugh.
Oh and I'm reading The Great Gatsby and he heard and I swore he smiled when he heard(: hehe
And I have a soccer game tomorrow so hopefully he will come even though I didn't tell him about it so.... Yeah. Bye wish me luck! :)