I Think I Am In Love With My Teacher

So, I am completely new at this EP thing so please bear with me!

Alright... I am a 17 year old junior in high school and I have this one teacher who is like an angel. Some background on him: he is 34 years young, divorced and has 3 kids. From the first day I saw him, I knew he was different. I've always been a bit of an oddball and I could just tell we had a lot in common. This was the first thing that made my heart start to pound. Add on the fact that he is physically attractive and I am in heaven. I have always been attracted to the nerdier guys and he is just perfection. He wears glasses, is 6'3", is very slim yet fit, and has very long, slender fingers (something I am very attracted to for some reason). This man is the smartest person I have ever met, has a dry sense of humor just like myself, and is a big history and technology nerd and reader. Having Asperger's has made me somewhat isolated from my peers because I don't think or act like them. I am physically and mentally attracted to older men because they are more mature, intelligent, and similar to me in many ways. The problem is, most adults wouldn't give me the time of day due to my age... until I met him. The first day we started conversing, I got the feeling he was genuinely interested in and listening to what I was saying. He looked me in the eyes and made comments when he found something to be particularly interesting. Unfortunately, my family life and health took a turn for the worst and I had to leave his class for quite a while. When I returned, he seemed genuinely happy to see me and welcomed me back. I felt faint and couldn't help but get giddy and smile. He was such a sweet guy and I just knew I was starting to like him more than I should. I'm a very blunt individual and am a firm believer in complimenting those you have a true compliment for. So, I did what most people would do... I wrote him a four page letter about my background and how much I admired him as an individual. He wrote a beautiful response and this is where I believe our lives changed for forever. This was the beginning of my love growing into something much more than I could even begin to imagine, something I could not control...

After writing him the letter, I began staying in his classroom everyday afterschool in order to wait for the parking lot to clear out so I could drive home. While waiting, I really got to know him and we really connected. He made me laugh and I him and we each seemed to truly enjoy one another's company. He would walk me out to the parking lot, hold the door for me, and always continue our conversation until he got to his car. Then he would tell me to have a wonderful evening and to be safe on my motorcycle.

Present: Now, I often notice him staring at me when we are alone and when I look up at him, he continues to stare despite my looking at him. Then, I'll usually look away first and he will smile and start talking about something random or we both enjoy. He even goes out of his way to speak to me now. I really really like this man and dare say... love him. He is everything I have ever wanted in a mate and I am just so happy whenever I am around him. My heart aches when he is not in school and beats a million times per minute when I am in his presence. I'm not used to this feeling and I have no experience whatsoever with relationships. I want him so badly but I have no idea what to do. Should I tell him since I'm almost 18? Should I just stay the course and not say anything. based on the info above, is it possible he likes me? Do I have a chance with him despite my age? It is important to note that age does NOT matter to me. I love him and his personality. Those are what truly matter to me. Sorry for the long post. I just wanted to include as much info as possible because I really need help. I love him so much and want to be with him every second of every day. Please, what should I do? I'm going crazy right now. Thank you all in advance for your responses and taking the time to read this post. As I said, I am completely new to this and must apologise. Take care and I await your responses! (^-^)
OldSoul13 OldSoul13
22-25, F
5 Responses Nov 24, 2013

i am too

wait till you graduate

you should change ur age so everyone can talk to you

I changed my age! I apologize. I did not realize my age prohibited certain individuals from conversing with me! (^-^)

great would u add me as a friend

Lol, is that the same thing as adding you to ny circle? If so, I added you. (^-^) Haha, can you tell I'm still new to the site! :-P

Not everyone thinks that age is a factor. If you really care about him and it seems he cares about you then you should take a chance. If it doesn't work out you might be hurt for a short while but if you don't try it will hurt you for the rest of your life. I'm 60 and took the chance with a beautiful lady who is only 31. Now we are very very close and spend a lot of time together both in and out of the bedroom. Others can't understand us and say what could you possibly have in common. But we have lots in common with things we like to do, books we like, shows, traveling and yes really great sex. Good luck and go for it :)

Don't go after him. Wait until you graduate. He can be fired.