Once In A Lifetime

This past summer I was lucky enough to be able to go on a foreign exchange trip with my high school. I learn German in school (it is my family's language), so naturally we went to Munich Germany. As soon as I stepped off the plane i knew that I was home. I fell in love with the country, and knew that I would be back many many times. And finally, hopefully, end up there.

But I didn't only fall in love with the country.. I found a boy too.. It was casual this summer.. Not too big of a deal. And I left after the 8 days- sad- but not terrible. As soon as I got home though things changed. We skyped every few days. We both had a texting app so we could talk easier. And that's when I knew I was going back. So I planned my return trip for Christmas. He invited me to spend Christmas with him and his family, and since he had his own place, I could live with him while I was there. I came mid December- and I leave for America in 2 days. I spent three weeks in Munich. I felt at home. I loved his family. They were all so welcoming. And they all invited me back. I was happy every moment I spent with him. And being alone made it feel more real. It wasn't casual anymore. It wasnt random. He plans to come to America- and I plan on going back in the summer. Yesterday was the hardest day. Yesterday was the day I left Munich to go back to My family. I spent the day crying. I cried on the train. I cried with my family. I knew I would be sad- but I didn't expect it to hurt this bad.

I have another German friend here. And he is dating an American that goes to a neighboring school as well. So.. If they can do it.. And he is still in high school.. Doesn't that give me proof that its possible?

Both me and my guy are in our last year of high school. 18 and 17 years old. Young- but more thoughtful. As a senior I have to have my life In order. And this is all a part of it. I just want to know- when does it get easier?
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1 Response Jan 11, 2013

Missing someone doesn't get easier I'm sorry to say. Especially when you know you both feel the same for each other. Cause all you want to do is be with them and laugh and make great memories. I know that it's hard because he is so far away. But do not think of how far he is from you or how you want to be with him. Think only of the great memories you have both shared together. Think of how lovely his family was to you and you'll catch yourself smiling. I know that sounds easier said then done, but just try it. And just think to yourself once you finish your senior year you have all the time in the world to work out what you want to do whether that includes going back to Munich or not.Just stay positive and be happy. Think of the memories. :)