She's Perfect And Amazing, But Completely Out Of My Reach.

I love her so much, but she doesn't love me back. I told her that I love her and ever since I first told her I knew that she didn't like me back. She likes some guy that she barely met and it hurts to hear that she's found someone she really likes. It hurts that she doesn't want me at all. She's told me I'm a great person, she's told me I'm attractive, she's told me I'm good enough, but she doesn't want me. I don't feel great, I don't feel attractive, and I certainly don't feel good enough. What's messed up is that I completely believed that she would be the first one to like me back. I guess not. And now I'm trying to run away from her. I'm trying so hard to not be near her, but I can't stop thinking about her. I want to talk with her and I want her to talk back. But secretly in the back of my mind I want her to tell me she loves me and that she hasn't realized it until now. I want her to want me back so badly. But, and I know this, I can't ever have her like I want to. I can't and it hurts like I'm being destroyed from the inside out. Like my heart is tightening and making me struggle underneath it. It hurts.
RandaJM RandaJM
18-21, F
2 Responses May 18, 2012

Absolutely godawful<br />
and "me too"<br />
Feels like a curse

This hurts. You've described it well enough