I Felt It As Soon As I Saw Him
I am so glad I have somewhere to get this off my chest. I don't really know where to start with this and I feel silly saying what will follow, but I sincerely believe that I have found the man that I have been looking for all these years. You know they say that when you find someone who feels right or 'the one' you will just know it, and not have any doubts at all, that person just feels right, and nothing even comes close in comparison. Well I know that I have found that person. I instantly felt a strong connection to this man, and I really care about him. The trouble is , is that we are both in long term relationships with commitments attached etc. Although we both supposedly 'love' our partners, and would not want to hurt them, we both feel as though something fundamental is lacking in our relationships. I know it would be too complicated to take things further with this person and would be far more of a risk for him than for me, so we are just going to pretend that these feelings are not there and hope that they go away. Its not helping right now though as I type this, its as if every fibre of my being is wanting to be with him. This has totally blown me away, and I never thought that I could feel like this for someone, especially as I dont know this man very well. I wish that I could just forget it all, but I can't...I keep thinking why should two people be in relationships that will not give them what they really want...and just go along with what seems satisfactory ..and wasting their lives with a 'what if' mentality :( surely its not fair that my current bf and his current gf should live their lives with partners who have secret feelings for other people ( i mean if you love someone really you wouldnt go behind their backs, no matter how drunk you were at the time)...Im just so fed up right now...why cant I have what I want for once...? why is everything so near and yet so damn far all the time?