Really Screwed Up!

Definitely get out of there. I grew up in a pretty loving environment, the love came mostly solely from my mom. The one time I saw my dad beat my mom was the last time I ever respected the man. Everything about him that I had once admired I began to hate. I even made a conscious effort to try to not be like him which is ironic because people often say how we are so similar. Anyway, this incident happened when I was in my early teens, safe to say my views of what marriage was supposed to be had been somewhat cemented by then as someone already mentioned. Nevertheless I could always tell that my mother wasn't happy in the marriage. At 5-6 years old I remember telling my mom to leave my dad, and how I told my mom, "I don't understand this christian marriage of yours..." Lol. Quite an odd child.



My mom and my dad finally seperated a couple of years ago, I was pleased for my mom to be honest. I harboured a lot of hate for my father for a very long time, suffered greatly because of it. I also suffered moments of great pain and was often neglected when my parents fought. Without going into too much detail, my mom chose to leave for a few months to decide on her future with my dad, I was left with a man who I thought loved me, only to never see this man for weeks on end. Lost weight because there was hardly any food in the house, but my dad was quite well off, he just didnt care. I was in my mid teens then. What was happening here was that these adults were fighting, and I was caught in the middle of it all. Children are like the grass, and the parents are like elephants. When the elephants fight, its the grass that gets trampled on. My mom told me that.



Today I face difficulties that arose in that period when I was neglected. My life isn't bad but I have to say, I wish I didn't have some of the baggage that I picked up along the way. This is what happens when parents choose to stay in an unhealthy relationship. The grass gets trampled on while the elephants fight.

Almost u love u r husband than anyone?

Definitely call it quits. At least that's my advice. I've since left my husband and am with my wonderful man. The downside is that someday I'm going to have to be honest with my children someday as to what I did. I'm not sorry for falling in love with my man, I do however regret the fact that I abandoned my own morals. I want to be a better role model for my children than that. They deserve better from me than that.



Your children deserve better too. Not just from you, but they deserve a better environment than that. Even if you hadn't already found someone else to love, you NEED to get out of that physically abusive environment 'cause if you think it just affects you, you are SERIOUSLY mistaken. Sorry, but it's the truth.



Also, did you know that your children's perceptions of what a "normal" marriage/serious relationship is molded the most from birth to 5 yrs? Do you REALLY want your children thinking that physical abuse is normal and ok in relationships?



Seriously, pack your kids, pack your things, and get the hell out of there. Save your children and save yourself.