I was 16 when I got married. I really screwed up! I knew I didn't want to get married but what could I do? I couldn't embarrass him in front of our friends and family!! I was a good wife. I did everything he asked. I was faithful to him. I never thought about cheating, he would accuse me but I was his wife, I couldn't do that!! Things were always a battle between us even more so after our first son was born. We didn't just argue, we would physically fight. I remember my mom taking me to the emergency room one night because he was going to hit me and I tried to stop him and broke a bone in my hand. I told everyone that I got mad and punched the wall. I finally found someone to talk to. It was a guy, his cousin. I should have known better but I just needed to talk to someone and he was there!! Needless to say that was the first time I cheated! It was one time and I confessed! We worked it out and stayed together. I have been "seeing" his brother in law for the past 5 years. My 6 month old might even be his! I love this other guy so very much!! I'm not sure how he feels about me. He says he is in love with me but I don't know if it's true! I have considered confessing everything but I can't! I love him and would never do anything deliberately to hurt him. I wonder if I should stay with my husband because it's easier or call it quits!!