I am in love with both my husband and my ex-boyfriend. My ex is married and has kids, but has admitted that he still loves me too. Neither of us want to screw up the lives we have now, but we both fantasize about getting back together someday. I can't stand thinking that I might never be with him again. I cry almost every day. I can't tell my husband, brcause he wouldn't understand, even though I love him and would never leave him.