I Guess It's Always Been You

For some reason tonight it all hit me. The fact that I'm completely vulnerable, and I've given the one person that hurt me the power to do it again, and I couldn't be happier. I always thought this quote was cheesy "If you love something, let it go, if it comes back it's yours forever. If it doesn't, then it was never meant to be." Now it kind of defines my love life. My boyfriend and I started dating when I was 15 and he was 16. When I graduated high school we decided to move in together, as we were both going to college in the same town, too far away to live at home. We soon realized it wasn't working out, and we broke up. A year later, that boy was still on my mind, and apparently I was still on his. After what we both now regard as a much needed break, one where we both matured and gained independence, we decided to give it another shot. About six months after we got back together he joined the army and is now in basic training. Things have been good between us, we've talked alot about the future, we both want similar things in life, and I support his decision to join the military and knew I would wait for him no matter what. I guess I've always known that I love him, now more than ever. Last night I got a phone call from him, an unexpected surprise since I've only had two in the past two months. I can honestly say I think it's one of the best conversations we've ever had. I can't even really remember what it was, but I was talking to him about a decision and he said "Baby, whatever you decide I'm behind 100%, always." It meant alot to me, and then we got to talking about me coming to visit him, because right now he's 1000 miles away. I told him I really can't afford it right now and he said "It's on me, it would be priceless to see you."  Then, before he hung up he told me he wants forever with me. I guess I've always known he loves me, but tonight I realized I'd follow him anyway, and be happy just being with him. Sorry this story is so long, and there's really no point. Just feeling a little nostalgic and lonely tonight with no one to talk to, in a very happy way though.

smda32 smda32
18-21, F
3 Responses Mar 22, 2009

True love is hard to find so when you do hold on. You find it when you least expect it.

I'm so very happy for you! True love is hard to find so take care of it, nurture it and remember... every good relationship takes work and there all always ups and downs and compromises.<br />
But it is worth it.

That sounds breathless, very lovely and I wish you two the best of everything