I'M So Lonely...

I'm so lonely Lord, why have you put this curse on me. I get good grades, I have good looks, I try to do my best. But, Why Lord, Why, have you put this love-sadness / loneliness curse on pore 17year old me.. I know I have all my life to find the perfect girl. But because you gave me autism, they all start to frown. Why Lord. Why, do I deserve such punishment. For I know the devil takes hold of me, and i start watching P*rn because I feel so lonely. Why Lord, Why, is it to much to ask for a sign; a sign that can tell me, I won't forever be lonely. Why Lord, Why, can't you just help me, take me out of my misery, take me out of being lonely. Why Lord, Why, do i feel so sad, why won't the tiers run down my face at last. Why Lord, Why, do i bottle up my tiers, why do the people, laugh when i cry. Why Lord, Why, can't i ask a girl on a date, for you didn't give me no courage, for goodness sakes. Why Lord, Why, do all girls seem to hate me, for it is my autism, whom makes them not look at me. Why Lord, Why have you given me such a personality, for it's the personality, thats make people seem to hate of me. Why Lord, Why, do i deserve to be, so lonely in this world, when supposedly Lord, you claim you love me. Why Lord, Why, do i deserve to live, when i feel i'm living in a living hell, with no one to be with. Why Lord, Why, a girls so hard to read, why is it so hard to be being me.

I want to kill my self, I know I must die, for no one would miss me, no one ever seems to notice me. Why Lord, Why, can't you lift this curse, this curse of depression, this curse of hurt. Why Lord, Why, do I a never a go, for if I were to go, I would never be found. I've never been found, I've never seen me, So why should there be, A SoleMate For Me.