I am all alone, and I only have myself to blame. I alienated all of my friends, pushing them aside time after time.

This is what I wanted?

I am not sure why.

I don't want to 'talk about it' with them but I really wish I still had the option. I would give anything to just have someone to sit with right now, listen to music, and have a superficial conversation.

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1 Response Feb 27, 2010

the tension i feel when someone offers to talk to me about it is incredible. almost as big as my loneliness.