I Love Him So Much It Hurts..

My cousin and I have always been in love ..
We hated each other when we were kids, yet we couldn't be apart from each other. My mom always told me that we would ask for each other all the time, and when we were together one of us would end up crying. He confessed that he loved me when he was 16 and i was 14. I always knew there was something more, but i always ignored it. Then in 2008 we got together and had a relationship for 2 years, until one day he told me that we should take our separate ways. It's been 5 years and i'm still not over him..It's like i love him more and more each day..Our families are very close and although we are not together i know that he loves me by the way he looks and touches me. It's weird ..sometimes i feel like we are meant to be and that in our past lives we were lovers, that's why we are in love now..haha yes i know it sounds crazy, but i have no other explanation onto these deep feelings i feel for him....he's just so perfect for me, everything i need and want in someone, it's him<3

The thing is i don't know if he still loves me, and i feel like i'm going crazy without him :/ I love him with all my heart, but how would i know if he still loves me too?
J05209 J05209
22-25, F
3 Responses Nov 28, 2012

This is happening to me right now ! I love him but he says he doesnt live me but i know he does ! I feelline he says he doesnt because we are cousins but i dont care id marry him

i've been in love with my cousin for more than 15 years !
First time we acuatlly met was in 1999 And I can remember than moment very well like it was yesterday . i'm 18 now ! and she is almost 17 .
I have never told her , how do you think this feels like ?

He probably does still love you but thinks it would be better for the family if you both seperated. My cousin and I are in love with each other as well and it is a very difficult and painful situation to be in because you want to be together but the family part is really hard. I would tell him your feelings and ask him if he still feels the same way. Even if he doesn't you will know for sure and can try to move on. It will be easier than beating yourself up about it everyday.

Yes it is a very hard situation especially since none of your family members understand unless they've gone through something similar. Yeah that's a good idea, rather than assuming the worse each day :/...anyways good luck with your situation and i hope things get better so that u and ur cousin are together:)

Thank you very much, and I wish you all the best and happiness that life has to offer :)