EmptyThis is my first story I discovered this site because I suffer from insomnia and I can only sleep with music but lately it hasn't helped. I'm 16 I go to school, talk to friends and do normal stuff like a average teen ......but yet I still feel this emptiness a hole in my heart that I cannot fill no matter what I tried I cover it up with drugs alcohol and rebellious behavior people say I'm a good person how nice I am. But I'm reality I am not i hate everyone I smile on the outside but on the inside I wouldn't hesitate to stab them in the heart or slit their throat . The thought of that makes me happy i feel like people who don't feel like me should feel pain and death I am jealous I want to see there blood spill on the ground because blood ....it gives me a euphoria once I see it I want to see more like a drug addict with a unending desire to get high I tried to go to counseling to see if I can help myself but in the end they say I'm just a rebellious teen but I know the truth. The truth I won't hide
I AM INSANE I LOVE EVERY SECOND OF IT I ENJOY THE ADREANALINE IT FILLS THE VOID AND I AM ADDICT WHO CAN'T GET ENOUGH I ENJOY SEEING PEOPLE SUFFER AND IN PAIN IT MAKES ME SMILE
So that's my story I don't know what to do now.