Broken PerceptionLogically speaking, I know that I am not "bad-looking" or unattractive. Moreover, I usually receive positive vocal recognition of my physical appearance... but that doesn't stop the thoughts. The critical comments from self. The small frown when looking into that mirror. And it certainly does not stop me from imagining myself as very much amended. And deep down, I feel that if I only looked more refined and pleasant, perhaps people wouldn't notice what a chaotic mess I am. Or feel that I am.
Words just don't do it for me. I feel inadequate in almost all senses. If I can't even accept myself physically, how could I accept myself inwardly? The latter is much more complex than simple flesh.
DustToAshes 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 Oct 6, 2011