I Am Insecure About My Looks

Depression

By: Discard92

Written on January 10th, 2012

I used to suffer from severe depression until a med cocktail (only three different prescriptions), and some reconditioning on my own accord, I was able to overcome it, for the most part. I was depressed because I felt I was too ugly to have a normal life. Then it spiraled into other crap like I'm not smart enough, I'm a loser, etc. I was a mess and eventually ended up trying to kill myself. I never did that again, but I wanted to on a regular basis.

I started thinking the world was incredibly biased towards good-looking people - a thought I still hold some belief in, just not as much as I used to.

When I got over the depression, I was feeling great. And I finally considered myself to be a very good-looking guy. But recently I've been having relapses. Relapses where if I see myself in the mirror, I just want to punch it and break it. Something I did once when I was in the midst of my depression.

But now I'm 19, about five months have passed since I noticed the miraculous improvement. But things haven't really been going all that well for me. My love life hasn't changed at all. Girls just aren't interested in me and I'm beginning to believe that it is because of my looks. In fact, I'm pretty sure that's the case. I can't see what else is wrong. I carry myself with confidence, I'm smart, I'm talented...

I usually don't hate the way I look anymore, but I do get into funks where I do despise my appearance. So I guess that means I'm insecure now instead of just positive I'm unattractive.

By: Discard92

Age: 18-21 , Male

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4 responses

Myalee

I was shocked when I saw your avatar, my gosh, you're good looking, honestly!

Whenever you thinks low of yourself, it's a vicious cycle, you need to find a way to break the cycle permanently, I don't know but you gotta have willpower and determination to make it through. You've succeeded before and you can do it again.

My friend took tablets for about 1 year. She went on holiday and because she had people around, she came off it. For 3 months, she went into depression until the day she suddenly stopped feeling depressed. I know it works for some people and it doesn't work for others. For me, after coming off depression tablets last year, I am kind of having depression again and it's lasted longer than my friend did. That's because I've been depressed for many many years. I've had counsellings which helped a bit along the way.

Keep yourself surrounded with lovely people, keep going to work/college/training/djing, whatever you do, keep going and channel your time and energy into something you love that stops you from thinking too much about your loneliness or girls.

You will seems more attractive to girls who likes guys who have things to do. Girls don't bums, remember that. lol

Hope this helps.

Mar 15, 2012
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depressed28

That's the problem with taking pills - they only make you feel better for the period that they work. They create a temporary effect. But in all honesty, you're a pretty boy just other people have treated you so bad you're still reeling back from it. You're putting awful thoughts in your head as a result of it. I have the same problems... you are 19 and you have everything going for you, seize the moment now to live your life. Don't lock yourself up either.

Jan 22, 2012
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charmingpurple

??? And then who is the nice looking guy on your ava?

Jan 10, 2012
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loveiscrazy

You're not ugly at all, I would date you if I know you :)

Jan 10, 2012
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