Hitting Hard

I AM 50 AND AS A SINGLE PARENT OF AN 18 YEARS OLD DAUGHTER WORK CAN BE VERY STRESSFUL. YET, I ALWAYS KNEW THAT BEING INSECURE WOULD BRING OUT THE WORST IN ME.... SOME DAY. I DON'T BELIEVE IN TAKING MEDICATION SO I JUST TRY TO DEAL WITH IT THE BEST I CAN,.... I FOUND OUT U CANT. EVERYTIME I AM IN A SITUATION AT THE OFFICE( TASK WISE) I HYPERVENTILATE, NEGATIVE THOUGHTS, I JUST CAN'T CONCENTRATE AND THEN I START TO ASK THE SAME QUESTIONS ABOUT WHAT I HAVE TO DO MORE THAN TWICE.  I HAVE BEEN SENT TO THE OFFICE MORE THAN TWICE ABOUT "MY INABILITY TO PREFORM MY JOB" . IT IS A MIRACLE I DONT HAVE HBP... I GIVE IT. STREES IS RUINING MY LIFE AND SO IS BEING INSECURE. I AM DEDICATED TO RAISING MY DAUGHTER, WORK AND JUST DOING THE BEST I CAN. CAN ANYONE RELATE TO THIS?

PR50 PR50
46-50, F
Mar 13, 2010