It's Bringing Me DownI'm not sure if this is the right group for me to post this in, but I think this is the best fit with my story. My biggest insecurity is my looks. And, makes me kind of sick that I can't see what other people see in me. I feel like I should be a very confident person but I'm not. I get told on a regular basis that I am pretty by my dad, and my sisters, random people and friends. But, for some reason that good feeling lasts for about 5 minutes and then I'm back to thinking I look like a hot mess. I don't know what it will take for me to believe that I am beautiful. I think part of the reason that I am like this is because I'm 22 and still have never had a boyfriend. And, while I know that I shouldn't rely on a guy to make me feel pretty, I think it would make me feel more validated if someone did look at me and think wow I want to date her. Don't get me wrong I get stopped by guys at the mall or walmart all the time, but let's be honest those guys aren't really looking for relationships haha. I'm mainly not happy with my body. There are a couple of things about me that I'm scared no guy would accept.
I'm also insecure about my abilities. I know I'm a smart person, but at the same time I'm constantly comparing myself to other people in my classes calling them geniuses and just thinking of myself as average. I want to get into physical therapy school, but I don't have any confidence in my abilities and I am scared that if I do get accepted I will blow the interview because I don't think as highly of myself as I should.
This also plagued me in high school. I know that I was the best pla
Basically, I need more confidence. I have taken steps to feel more confident. I've recently been going out of the house makeup free which is really hard because my complexion is not the best. I do still have mild acne, and have left over acne scars on my face. But, I'm trying to become more comfortable in my natural state. I also have started to not worry as much about what I wear. I love clothes, but I don't think it's necessary for me to always have my outfits perfect. I've also started to become more confident with the way I talk to people. I sometimes let people walk all over me, but I'm starting to stand up for myself and make sure that I don't let that happen. These steps are very small, but at the same time are very big steps for me. A month ago I wouldn't even consider leaving the house without makeup.
aj555 18-21, F 7 Responses 4 Jan 14, 2012