A Letter To MomI know you will never be able to read this. But today I felt like I have lost the final shelter that I had on this earth. I know you are stressed because of all that is happening within the family and may be because of this you did what you did today. It wouldl be an arranged marriage as you were the one who wanted me to marry him. And I said that if somehow this engagement broke because of all that we were going through, I will be able to go on with my life as if nothing will have happened. But now you think of my engagement as your mistake because you didn't include your husband in that decision! Yes, he is your husband only. Not my father! Fathers are not like that. You know. You know why I hate him. You know he has made our lives hell. Well, so.... now .. you are saying that it was me who made you to arrange for that engagement! No! I was you who wanted so. And you also know that he was a stranger to me. He was a nice guy, I liked him but I didn't love him. Yes, I didn't. But now... after such a long period of time a few months before marriage, you are saying that it was a mistake!... I am in love with him... I am. You can leave me like father did. But you cannot erase this love. I can breathe without him but I can never live. I am not a robot. I have feelings. I can fall in love.. and fallling in love with my own fiance! it is not strange, mom. Is it?
You have created such an enviroment that I cannot say it aloud that I love him but I do. If you or your husband made it difficult for me to marry. I won't yell... I won't cry... I will just go away... far far away.. where I will never come back from. I will leave this country.
Human, Not Robot.
FoundThenLostOnTheSameDay 22-25 5 Responses 5 Nov 17, 2012