Insecure About Everything

Not being such an blow As$ but people do tell me I'm pretty and I could get better looking guys than the ones I go for. I hate being complimented, I always will take it to heart offensively. Sure I'll say "thank you" out loud and scream in my mind FOR LYING TO ME. I am sooo not pretty especially when I see other prettier girls out in the world. They are better looking than I am and yet the guys that do like me are usually the "abs and all" dream guy but I don't want to go out with them. I always think that they are too good for me to even stare at. What the heck do they see ? Because I am definitely not seeing a beautiful girl in my reflection.
I always seem to miss my chances on going out with one of them because I can't shake this stupid feeling.

Even when it comes to my friends. Most of my friends that I have made in my life are white. I just seem to notice this when someone told me. It really didn't bother me at first until I looked through all my friends and she was right. I have had made friends with almost every single culture but it all comes down to that they are mainly white. I am the brown one in the pack...heck I may be the only brown friend that some of them have had. If you put all my friends and me together I would totally stand out.
They are the pretty ones as well. Gorgeous green and blue eyes,beautiful skin, skinny, EVERYTHING I wish I was.
All I have is brown skin,brown eyes,brown hair BROWN. Nothing special, just plain and simple.
VaiinChick VaiinChick
18-21, F
1 Response Dec 15, 2012

awww......why you overthink these things....?
thats clear that you look totally different in you group so all the good abs n muscles are attracted towards you....thats the nature of man...I am also a brown skin black hair black eyes......
and you know what brown is attractive....you are good and can go out with anyone.....like from John Travolta to Zach efron...xD
don't feel insecure...conquer your deepest fears......do whatever you are afraid of..:))