I Am Insecure and It Is Destroying Me

 When I meet someone, I tend to become what I think they want because I don't think I am good enough a person for them to like me. I don't know who I am anymore, or if there is even any of me left anymore. 

When people are upset, I am always convinced it is about me. I feel like I make things about me that way, but I can't help not feeling like it's my fault. 

My insecurity is my biggest demon. It may end up costing me the love of my life. It may end up costing me the life I've wanted. I don't know if I would ever be able to live again. 

Surujen Surujen
31-35, F
2 Responses Mar 2, 2009

Maybe you should take time alone to figure out who you really are? changing yourself for the sake of someone else is obviously going to confuse you.<br />
You should just be yourself. People should accept you for who you are and not what they want you to be. And if they can't do that. Then they are not worth having as friends.<br />
Being yourself is the only way you are going to live life happy. Because being you is the true you. You don't want to fake being someone else forever because that would just be living a lie.<br />
You are probably an extremely cool person! and you need to let that person shine!

Many of us go through the same thing but it is possible to get over it and start rediscovering who you are and who you want to become. It seems to me you need to spend sometime alone just learning and discovering yourself again. You mignt actually enjoy the journey into yourself. Best wishes.