My Anger Makes Me Feel Like Superman
I have been told all my life how angry i am. When people look at me they see my father. My friends are afraid of me. I can't drink alcohol as i get angry. I have hurt many people. Have shown little to no respect for others personal safety. Grew up in an explosive environment. Have been told i am the result of my experiences. I now have remorse for those things i have done.
Those of you who read this and feel some familiarity you'll also know the feeling of intoxication, the power and strength that the anger brings. I feel the rush start in my stomach and rise up my body- consumes me. Feels so good.
The strength, the energy it brings. I love the way i don't need sleep and don't feel pain. No sorrow or guilt. The emptiness is removed. Huge tasks become incidental. Results are achieved. Focus is amplified. It intoxicates you. Your whole body just feels alive. There is no pain. There is no doubt.
There is no sorrow.
I feel like i need to be wheeled out in a cage. The fear in others eyes.
As with all drugs, there's always a price to pay and the toll may be harsh. Some get off lightly but others pay dearly.