In A Nutshell

I don't know how to be happy and so I am jealous of people who are naturally happy.  I am jealous of people who had normal families and normal childhoods.  I am jealous of people who don't have to struggle like I do.  I am jealous of people with their lives together.

cssoulsearching cssoulsearching
26-30, F
2 Responses Mar 15, 2010

Could this just be an age thing ?

Now isnt this odd, im a 61 year old male who is simply not a happy person, I have a friend who is always happy, he once said to me that he could not be like me, and I know I could never be like him.<br />
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But somwhere inside im a little jealous of people in general who appear content, even happy with their lot in life.<br />
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I wonder why I feel unhappy, and I wonder why im jealous ?, surely to feel in charge of "ones" own emotions is a great thing.