I Am Jealous Of Couples In A Long Term Relationship
I feel sick and bitter inside when i see couples that have loved each other for a long time. And i think the reason why i feel like that towards them is because i have never dated or had a girlfriend before, well i have had a few but they were extremely short term relationships. How does it work, i mean what does it take. I try to be a good person, i try to understand how a female works to the point that i study them like a scientist and take notes when i;m talking to one, but i seriously dont understand why its so complicated. How come girls dont see me as boyfriend material, is it because i dont look like a guy that would makes all the girls melt, is it because i have a funny accent, is it because i have interests that they hate, i dunno, and it tears me inside that its so hard to find the right one. maybe i feel bitter towards couples because i;m jealous, yes its because i'm jealous. I have been told that being jealous is a mean thing but i feel i have a right to be jealous because of my badluck with women. I tried matching site and all they want is for me to pay them money and they dont give me god matches to start of with. I don't know. I feel drained even thinking about this. maybe being single is not so bad, i can do what i wanna do, when i want, where i want. maybe i was born to be single, maybe i dont see myself getting married, or maybe i;m thinking about it way too much, or maybe its too early for me to think about relationships, maybe i'm one of those guys who find love later on in life, later than others, maybe i have to wait longer because I;m always frickin behind on everything. maybe its not the right time yet. oh well. i feel exhausted typing all of this.