I Am Jesushelper
Its been a while since I wrote a story or even logged into the site. My life has been pretty busy with helping people, and concentrating on somewhat of a personal life. It also seems over the past few weeks I have had to make some difficult choices. I am not going to get into all the choices but they have all came down to me making this final choice....
As some know, I have been helping a drug addict recover over the past three months. Through this time, she has had some up and down times. She has been in jail, and had taken some steps towards recovery. Once she was out, she stayed with me until she could get out on her own. Unfortunately, she has has a relapse and went missing for two weeks. Through this time, I have been out with her family searching the streets for her, over night. She has been taken into custody by the police over the weekend for probation violation. She has called me to let me know, but I already knew. She didn't know that I was already one step ahead of her.
Today she is in court, and yes I will be going. But I have a choice to make when I speak for her. Now, I will admit, I do care for her alot (not romantically). She is one of the sweetest people I have ever met, when she is sober and straight. My choice is deciding how much do I care for her.... do I care for her just to give her instant gratification of not going back to jail? I know two things about this situation, going to jail isn't going to help her as there are no programs in there to help, on the other hand, staying out isn't going to help her either as the programs they have her in are situated right in the same area as the crack houses. (As a side note on that, who was the brains behind that one, it would be the same as holding AA meeting in a bar.) They expect her to walk, freely I should add, in the neighbourhood which got her in trouble to begin with, where all her "buddies" hang around. Out of the two scenarios, although neither will work, at least the jail option will keep her alive.
So how much do I care for her again? Do I care for her enough to make her hate me by making the right decision to save her life. Thats what I have to do. Caring for someone isn't about doing things to make them care for you..... caring for someone is about making the hard choices, even if they don't like it, but are right for them. Even if it means losing a friend. I guess I would rather have a living enemy, than a dead friend.
As some know, I have been helping a drug addict recover over the past three months. Through this time, she has had some up and down times. She has been in jail, and had taken some steps towards recovery. Once she was out, she stayed with me until she could get out on her own. Unfortunately, she has has a relapse and went missing for two weeks. Through this time, I have been out with her family searching the streets for her, over night. She has been taken into custody by the police over the weekend for probation violation. She has called me to let me know, but I already knew. She didn't know that I was already one step ahead of her.
Today she is in court, and yes I will be going. But I have a choice to make when I speak for her. Now, I will admit, I do care for her alot (not romantically). She is one of the sweetest people I have ever met, when she is sober and straight. My choice is deciding how much do I care for her.... do I care for her just to give her instant gratification of not going back to jail? I know two things about this situation, going to jail isn't going to help her as there are no programs in there to help, on the other hand, staying out isn't going to help her either as the programs they have her in are situated right in the same area as the crack houses. (As a side note on that, who was the brains behind that one, it would be the same as holding AA meeting in a bar.) They expect her to walk, freely I should add, in the neighbourhood which got her in trouble to begin with, where all her "buddies" hang around. Out of the two scenarios, although neither will work, at least the jail option will keep her alive.
So how much do I care for her again? Do I care for her enough to make her hate me by making the right decision to save her life. Thats what I have to do. Caring for someone isn't about doing things to make them care for you..... caring for someone is about making the hard choices, even if they don't like it, but are right for them. Even if it means losing a friend. I guess I would rather have a living enemy, than a dead friend.
By:
JesusHelper
Age:
36-40
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Male
