The Transition............part 3

So much to share, I don't know where to begin!

Court again on Thursday! Had huge confrontation with the woman who was assaulted by my soon-to-be-ex-husband. I am the key witness to what happened. Not sure how this is all going to pan out. Will tell the truth and nothing but the truth, so help me God!

Court order for my soon-to-be-ex-husband to pay 50% of the expenses has come to naught! Imagine that! All that waiting and effort and he just gets away with it! Anyway, I can only wait until the situation gets resolved. Whether I lose my home, get blacklisted or whatever, this is not in my hands.

Maintenance hearing postponed to 29 March 2010. More waiting and no financial assistance. My son needs new school shoes and soccer boots. Will make a plan, God always provides......Always.......what we need and not always what we want! LOL

The warrior, is still here. It is almost 8 weeks! Wow and getting stronger every day. Who knew it was possible to find someone this late in the game. Someone who hears me, who sees me and most of all who so clearly loves me.......The warrior and I have no expectations, only time will tell and if God blesses us to continue to move forward, I would prefer that outcome to anything else.

I am reminded at every corner how wrong I was to believe that my self worth was dependent on being loved, appreciated and seen by the men in my life, including my father.

Learning alot, about myself, about the people who claim to know me and understand me. Still can't understand how they could have gotten it so wrong and that I have allowed this to go on for 13 years. Why?! Each moment I take myself back brings new awakenings of who I truly am and I like who I am.

All that said, 'Where am I?'.........................

Learning patience

Learning to let go

Learning to just be ME

Learning what it feels like to be loved....truly.....

So much has happened to me in the past 6 months, at first I was afraid........determined not to sink with the ship..........but now, I realise that I have no control of anything that happens from here on in. Sometimes we just need to be still and let God do His thing! His plans are not our plans, his timing is not our timing but at the end of the day, He knows what He is doing...........

passionfish passionfish
31-35, F
Feb 16, 2010