Suiside Thoughts

I'm am so scared right now at this point in my life.  I have so much bad **** goin on both medicaly and finachily.  I have been thinking of just ending it all some night by taking extra meds and chassin it with some hard wiskiey or something like that.  Hell even running my care into a tree would be good as long as i knew I would be out of my missary. 

I'm so sick of being sick and having so many medical bills that are just building up and up, and doesn't seam like there is any end in site.  I am on some pretty hard drugs right now, to try and calm me down and take those fears and thoughts out of me.  Have only been on them for a week and haven't had the chance to feel the full efects of them yet.  All I know is that I need help.  I don't wanna end my life I have a great family and cirlcle of friends and would hate to loose them.

So if there is anyone out here that can help me out I would appriciate it much.

laidbackcat28 laidbackcat28
26-30, F
4 Responses Jan 29, 2007

First thing you need to stand up and say to yourself, I am strong and I will fight. Be around family and friends that always help.Dont end your life cuz god in heaven gave you your life to live not to take it away when you get into a bind.Sometimes you have to tell your self that this trouble your in is a test from god, to see if you have faith in him. When your alone talk to him, he can hear you and tell him what you are going thru.Have faith in him, redem yourself to him. and bills wise pay one thing at a time or make payments a little is better than non. And tell these companys that a little is better than non and at least your trying and dont give up.

Speak with your doctor asap about these thoughts you are having. Some anti depressants can actually cause some people to feel suicidal. God put you on this earth for a reason. I believe he put you here to help other people. You may not see it that way but you can help others who are hurting just like you. I think you would be surprised how much of a difference you can make! Hang in there! Love yourself and know that you are special. Things will get better. Have you ever considered trying to file bankruptcy? I know medical bills and finances can make you go crazy! If it would help you wipe the sleight clean and get a fresh start why not give it a try? Take care of yourself. You are very loved by your family and friends and you are stronger than you realize! Hell I think your one tough cookie to endure all that you have!

Hey thanks for your words of wisdom, it helps me out more than you can immagin. It is a very hard thing that I'm goin through right now, and I can use all the support I can get. Thanks for helpin me out.

Don't give up! Let the pros know how you feel. They will do what they can to help. Most people hate going to the doctor, but the doctor is like a friend who just wants you to get better. The more he knows that you are suffering the more he might do to try and help you. I hope you get better. And I hope they find something for you that can help.