Feeling Incomplete......

I am half korean, I was born in Tongduchon and came to America when I was a baby. My mother (Korean) left when I was 3 years old. At first she took me with her when she moved to California with friends. But later she called my father and told him to come get me.

For awhile it was just my father and I, he tried to teach me as much as he could about the korean culture. He taught me the words he knew and there was even a tailor shop near us that was owned by koreans and he would take me in there sometimes to get his clothes tailored but I have a feeling it was more so for my benefit. Even after my mom left and I would ask him about her, he never spoke bad about her, he blamed himself for her leaving. He had albums of them in korean and I would just stare at the pictures and the backgrounds wondering what it was like to be there.

He told me about how Koreans were proud and hard-working people. And how beautiful Korea was with the mountains and the culture and history and the people itself. Later on christmas eve when I was 14 years old he told me the truth.

I was adopted, I was not his biological child nor his wifes (mother). He told me about how when he was stationed over there he had seen a child who had looked similiar to me and how she was going through a trash can for food. She was dirty and had no shoes and a store owner had chased her away from the trash can, he caught her and bought her food and gave her some money and sent her on her way. He told me his wife's friend had came to them and asked them to take me with them when they went to America so I would have a better life.

I cried, it seemed like a story from one of those talk shows - you would never think it could happen to you. About a year later my father died, I had never asked him any questions about who my real mother was. I never asked because I didn't want to hurt him, I didn't want him to think I was ungrateful for what he did for me. But still I never got that first hand experience of my mother's culture, my culture.

SukYoung SukYoung
26-30, F
4 Responses Mar 1, 2009

You should go spend a summer over there it longer. Nothing like immersion. And I get how you feel.

Thanks, I really want to. I have to save up some money before I can though

You have to powerfull
and just think... one king have to love a lot of people for to be a good king, you have to love your parents whereeveer thay are for to be a great person ^^
Hwaiting nuna^^

Thanks!

thats some story you have... <br />
well the truth is that koreans are mostly ignorant, aggressive people who like to gang up on the minority<br />
and we lost most of our traditional culture after our sudden economical development<br />
mmm but the food is pretty good.. well at least for me i think korean food is way better than what they sell in canada<br />
and the entertainment there is very well developed<br />
i mean, if you know korean you wont be bored watching korean tv<br />
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well but id recommend you pay a visit there its your home country

I don't know what country you're from, but I don't think you're right about Koreans, pluii. I'm French, and most Koreans I know are the kindest, the brightest people in the world. I don't think you should be generalizing the whole because of some people's doings.

i would like to visit Korea. I have read some stories about prejudice in Korea - but that could be from not having first hand experience and listening to ignorant people

To make a blanket statement like that about an entire race is inappropriate, even if you are Korean.

Wow. What a moving story. It must have been hard for your father to tell you the truth. It must also feel good to know that you were cared about so deeply by both your biological mother and your adoptive parents.<br />
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You could get work in Korea teaching ESL - I did. Perhaps that is a way for you to learn the language and culture. It seems very important to you, I would do it as soon as possible.<br />
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Take care and good luck.