Small Victory

I hosted my first party last night.

While married, he insisted on determining the guest list, creating the menu, cooking the food, and planning the activities (and yet he considered them "our" parties...lol).

Everyone had a great time. One woman commented that her cheeks hurt from smiling so much. Another begged that I host another get-together soon.

I need to learn to give myself the chance to discover of what I am capable. It's that fear of the unknown that stops me. I have to fight the fear. Last night was wonderful. Next summer, once the lake is ready for boating, is going to be incredible. I'm developing a great group of friends.
PeachesGalore PeachesGalore
46-50, F
1 Response Dec 23, 2012

When I stepped out of my marriage it was like I was slipping on a new persona. I was still me, but I was somehow stronger. Being in a bad relationship has a way of imperceptibly pushing you down into yourself, I think. Stepping up and out feels amazing. And the fact that you are attracting such nice people to yourself (as am I) means that it is not our imagination--the real us is shining through; it's love and it is a beautiful thing. Congratulations.

Thank you (and congratulations to you as well!) When I tell my "new life" people that I used to consider myself an introvert, their jaws drop. You're right...it does feel amazing.

Hi. I followed miss Q here.

Now, I am a guy. A little OC maybe according to other's perspectives but to me these are simply standards.

I cook, clean, cater, iron, etc for the occasions because I do not wish to fight about standards so, I do it myself.

She could, however call this stifling, oppressive and a string of bad descriptors.

It is a royal F up and so the only logical conclusion is that people like me should be alone and happily so.

The problem is that women find the precision that is around us to be attractive so, they make overtures and they love being there until they decide, one day, that it is overbearing and oppressive.

So, I tell them that I am not available but that hardly works.........

I know that a relationship, for me, is an exercise in futility. The end game is pre determined.

love and peace
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