I'm Done Going WithoutI was 16 when I got married. And we have been together for 30 years. For the majority of these years the only time my sexual needs are met is when I start getting a bad attitude due to the sexual frustration, we attempted marriage counseling when we were first married and the one thing I remember from that attempt was his belief that the woman should not initiate sex.
The pain of being rejected time and time again but knowing he is getting off to his barely legal teen images has become to much to handle. Our children are grown and I have recently reconnected with a childhood friend whose wife has recently passed away, our friendship has turned into more. We are both lonely and have fallen deeply in love.
He lives on the other side of the country and I am in pain that I will be leaving my children and grandchildren so far behind, but looking forward to a life of love and intimacy. I have to try this my biggest fear anymore that I will die with this horrible emptiness and loneliness inside of me.
Now if I could just get away from the guilt.