Shedding 140 Lbs. Of NegativityI am a few months into the legal process of leaving my sexless marriage...with another three to four months ahead of me.
Emotionally, I left years ago.
Now, as I go through the divorce dance, I find myself questioning how the hell I stayed with this man for so many years.
A perfect example...we attended the Brewers v. Cubs ba
But then I realized, "YOU used to be that sad person too!"
To accomodate our relationship, I used embrace his negative behaviors. I too was overly critical and unaccepting of others. I lacked confidence. I couldn't make decisions without consulting him first.
Nowadays, as I shed his 140 lbs. of negativity, I am so much happier.
I went out with some co-workers last Thursday. One of them engaged me in a conversation about my weight loss. He said, "yeah, you look smokin' hot...but, there's something more...you glow, you're more engaging, you're more confident...there has to be more to your story than just losing weight!" So, for only the third time since I initiated the divorce dance, I told a co-worker what was going on at home. It was liberating to share...he nodded as I filled him in, and stated he was there if I needed his help/support with anything.
I am not only shedding the negativity, but also surrounding myself with beautiful positive energy.
I am so thankful for the advice and support of my EP friends. Without you, this never could have happened.
PeachesGalore 46-50, F 12 Responses 9 May 19, 2012