Leaving It All Behind And Starting Again.

For the past year with the deposit of each paycheck into my account I have debated getting in the car and driving- driving until I couldn't go any further, driving until I found a place that I wanted to call home, exploring the world.
I have talked about this with a friend for awhile now and we decided the time has come. It is time to list my belongings on craigslist, pack up what is left and go. Pick a direction and drive. Begin a new life. 

I am anxious, nervous, excited, scared, worried but over all thrilled at the possibilities. 

So why am I still laying here in my apartment writing this? Why am I not packing and listing my belongings online for everyone to buy? 

I am an only child with a single mom. I told her today that I am planning on leaving, I told her I don't know when but I feel inside of me that I have to go. I cried. 

I have a lease that ends at the end of November and a job that I cannot quit over the phone or there will be a search party looking for me. I got a call today from my OBGYN and my most recent PAP smear had some abnormalities in it, the doctor wants me to go back in 6 months- in 6 months I don't know where I will be living, what I will be doing. 

This is the most difficult decision I have ever made. I have to do it. 50 years from now i don't want to be sitting in a doctor's office hearing I am going to die in 2 months and think back on the fact that I didn't go out and actually LIVE. 

I don't know if I will ever come back home and that scares me but I NEED to do this. 

If anyone has advice on things I should take with me or quick ways to make some money before I leave that would be greatly appreciated.