Pressure.

i am feeling under so much pressure to support my family. money seems to have always made us happy here...not in that superficial, material way. but people say money doesnt bring happiness or love and i sort of agree, but it does bring a breath of relief and a sense that ur feet are placed firmly on a steady ground...so lately (after having a kind of secure financial past for the past 5 or 6 years), being unemployed is not only driving me crazy but its causing me to feel so weak and like a disappointment...i am struggling with a bitter sense of unworthiness that i think a lot of unemployed ppl feel...when u try really hard, send all those applications and receive all those rejection letters its like ur entire identity is being rejected....i chose this degree when everyone doubted me. i excelled in it academically and everyone believed in me. i found work for 2 years and life was ok...now being unemployed feels like my fault. my disaster.....bf.
TheRealMimi TheRealMimi
31-35, F
Mar 10, 2010