I am doing kind of a crash course in paranormal activity right now.
A couple of months ago I had someone very close to me die. It was sudden and violent, and there was a lot left unfinished between us. We had a true connection between us.
Almost from the time I stopped crying, all the time, I began having things happen.
Some just sensed...like I wasn't alone. Moving around the house I would get the impression of someone else.
But then other things have happened. Things I know I have put in a specific place, are on my dresser a little later. Or somewhere else in the house.
I try to meditate and I thought I was hearing a bell... turns out it was a singing bowl I had put away that belonged to him. That took me a few days to figure out why I was hearing a chime. I was having trouble clearing myself enough to meditate. I finally found the bowl, where I had put it, and after striking it I realized that was what I was hearing. But it was in the bottom of a cabinet.
I was trying to figure out something to do with my hands, instead of smoking. His malas, which I kept putting in my jewelry box kept showing up on my dresser, sometimes out of the bag they are kept in.
And always the feeling of not being alone has been with me. Sometimes just out of the corner of my eye it's like I see someone.
Then...one day...at a very low point, I heard, felt, and even saw him.
Since then I haven't seen him again. But I have felt him more often. and I have heard him as well.
I know there is the part about unfinished business. And there was much unfinished between us. But the level of activity I have going on seems like a lot. Even with the connection we had.
At times it is comforting to know he is still with me, more than just metaphorically speaking.
At times it is a bit creepy. I know for instance that different people in my house notice different things.
The dog and cat act a little odd sometimes, like they are getting petted, or playing with someone. Someone not there.
I went to the Doctor the other day, we talked a little about why I was late on the follow up to my lab work. The doctor stepped out to check on a couple of the results for the tests...I was scared, nervous, and then I felt this 'touch' and actually turned to see who was there... When the Doctor came in and told me that yes the tests had shown some elevations, even he looked around. It was if someone had said "I thought so". We both just kind of passed it off and went on with the conversation and instructions.
I'm a believer in the paranormal. And at this point I'm believing that I am haunted. Not my house, or a place. Although it does seem strongest here.
But I find myself wondering...is this really him? I've started having dreams, vivid ones. Not nightmares, but some of them aren't organized, like they are bits and pieces.
Hopefully things will move towards a point or a conclusion where I can understand more what is happening. Till then.. I just puzzle through.
And before anyone mentions it. I am very familiar with the grieving process. How sometimes the emotions are so overwhelming that the sensory input is thrown off. This is different from that. Maybe it is still part and parcel of it. But...
Lol...it shouldn't be such that others are seeing, feeling and hearing it too.