Learning to Live In the Moment

I have so many goals in my life I want to achieve right now. I am so over eager to get there, that I am overwhelming my self. What makes it worse is that I have epilepsy and anxiety to fight against too. All of my goals are things I have wanted to do since I was young. I had to move out of my mom's house at an early age so I never graduated, so I want to get my GED. I want to go to college for animal rescue and habitat restoration, play guitar, find some kind of job to hold onto while going to college when I should not be working. I can't stand the thought of not working because I would feel useless. And other things as well. Within the past few months, I have noticed that this has been the biggest cause for most of my anxiety attacks. So the first thing I did was to quit the job I was at for two years taking care of and elderly person that was over stressing me. After I told her I was quitting, she turned on me and showed me how ungrateful she was even after going out of my way to help her with things that did not involve my job. After that, I was glad I quit. Ever since I was four I had always wanted to play guitar. So since I have the time now, I have been playing. It is very relaxing and therapeutic. And as for the other goals, even though it is hard, I am trying to make plans to take one step at a time to achieve them and let each one come at their right times.   

freebird79 freebird79
26-30, F
2 Responses Mar 18, 2009

I am very happy to hear that you are well on your way to accomplishing your goals! Despite your anxiety you seem to be a very patient person, or, perhaps, you are becoming one. Slow and steady! Best of luck. :)<br />
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P.S. I love playing the guitar, and it most definitely will ease your journey along the way.

I find that I have to make it almost a daily practice to read books that remind me to stay in the moment. After a lifetime of struggling with anxiety, I finally realized that those anxious moments always showed up when I jumped out of the moment and into some future possibility. I find Eckhart Tolle's book helpful reminders. Have you read any of his?