My Husband Left Me On 2/11
my husband left me and never looked back. he says that he has been trying for months but never told me that something was wrong. said he tried but i didn't' see it. I still saw the man that i have always loved. i didn't know anything was wrong, i had no idea, he never told me. All he told me was that he was depressed and is trying to figure it out but assured me that it wasn't us. that we were fine and that he loved me more then anything. now he says i love you but i am just not in love with you anymore. if i could believe him i would, but i saw the man that i love the last few months then all of a sudden he wasn't there anymore. now he is so distant and he is a man that i have never met. i am dying inside. i have lost a part of me when he walked out of our life. i am planning on a plan b but hoping for a plan a but i have no idea what to do, what to say or what to do next. i am trying to give him what he wants but it is so hard, i would never wish this pain on my worst enemy. I hate this all and he says that our marriage is un-repairable. i would agree if we tried and that failed but we haven't at least we haven't together. i can see if it was UN-repairable if we hated each other or he beat me or if one of us was a drunk that didn't' want to change or if it was mutual or if we both just knew. this is not just his world but he is controlling mine and i hate it. i want him back i want us again. i don't want it to happen too fast i just want baby steps because i don't want him to come back right away and all this happen again... i just want a fair chance that i know what is going on and try with him. i just feel after all this has happened that i am now on the chopping block that i am just never going to be good enough for him. i am a good person and i know that i deserve better, but my happiness is with him and has before i met him. maybe i just expected too much, maybe i didn't expect enough. i want him to know that i am still the same women that he had fallen in love with. i just haven't been myself for a few months and now my depression has been nipped in the butt. but how do i show him? what am i going to do now? I prey, i wish, i dream, but i don't beg. I don't want to push him further away. i want to win him back all over again. so yeah i am lonely and depressed that my husband left me, but i am strong and able to do things for myself. but i am just not complete without him.