No One Here
Feels like as if i cant be happy with the people im around. I have a feeling and i know there are so many interesting and kind people out in the world but they arent around me. All i see around me is dull and shallow people that continue to irritate me in any way possible. I am not a person who thinks highly of themselfs or someone who is rejected amoung social norms. Im a ordinary kind person who respects a fellow being , but for some reason i havent met the kind loving people that i really want to be around. And the sad thing is i know they exist somewhere and they may be hidden amoung the people here but its so hard to look beneath the surface when the surface disgust you enough. Instead of interesting people with kind hearts and positive values my life is filled with stupid, loud annoying immature people who are way to old to be acting the way they are. I dont know anyone that i enjoy sitting down and talking with or just having around because it seems lately everyone is just so different from what i want. I tried making in with the people im stuck with, but its hard to lie to yourself when inside you know exactly what you want and deserve. Im a good person who is sensitive , empathetic , and open minded towards people but I cant help to think why people are the way they are and why those people fill up my life. I dont think its fair that im stuck in this place with not a single soul i can closely relate to and have to feel like this. I deserve better people in my life but i dont have that and i have a feeling i may never. So still young and in highschool im feeling a bit hopeful for when I get to leave and move on with life but at the same time i feel left out from real people that i want to know and be with.