Do you ever feel like you watch yourself? Like in a movie the camera zooms out to watch the main character highlighted in a group of anonymous happy faces and his face is sad or neutral, thats how I feel with the world spinning around me and people moving at 4 x speed like the vision of a hummingbird.
I know people, I socialise to an extent but it does nothing, no one understands me, no one really listens to me but then again what do I have to say? Pseudo-Academic/intellectual crap that no one cares about or listens to.
I don't love anyone, I respect but I don't love my family or friends or teachers or any women I've met thus far (all 4 of them......). I'm scared that I don't love anything or truly feel what it is to be happy.