Right now, I feel like there is no one in the entire world that understands. My very best friend from high school and college, 8 years I have known this girl, has completely blown me off for her boyfriend. They are moving in together this weekend. While I am happy for her, and I will always want the best, it is difficult for me. First for boyfriend hates me and second I get so much crap for drinking. I finally spoke to her this evening and she basically said that we can no longer be friends because of her boyfriend. I told her that I did not want to be around him because it is uncomfortable for me and I don't want to wreck anything for her.
She is the one that said we could not be friends. I have bent over backwards for this child for 8 years. Lets see, in high school I would drive her and her friends around. I would take her boyfriend to night school, I helped her with the typically high school drama. In college, I would go and pick her up from places because she was so drunk. I would pay for ****. Then this past summer she was drunk and lost her car keys and glasses. At the time I was working a graveyard shift and had gotten off work at 3am. She called me at 10...crying. The guy she is with would not help her, even though his place was a 3 minute walk to car. So I drove 30 minutes to pick her pick. Then I had to wait an hour for the tow truck, but then she wanted to eat, I dropped her off at the dealership. Then I headed back to work...she called again very upset because of buying new keys. So, I being a good ******* friend, called the dealership and bought her a new set of car keys. She said thanks, but that was it. For her birthday we would go to the space needle and get a hotel in seattle. For my birthday, she told me to smile.
I dont trust people, and I really opened up to her. Now I have nothing. She told me her worse fear is being alone, and I said, "I live your worst fear everyday of my life!"
I know I am probably coming off like a ***** and I dont mean too, I feel I am a good person with a lot to offer. After our hour long conversation, I even texted her and said, "you should be excited for this, it is a positive life changing event, and I am happy for you." I got nothing back. Of course not...why would I?