No More

Right now, I feel like there is no one in the entire world that understands. My very best friend from high school and college, 8 years I have known this girl, has completely blown me off for her boyfriend. They are moving in together this weekend. While I am happy for her, and I will always want the best, it is difficult for me. First for boyfriend hates me and second I get so much crap for drinking. I finally spoke to her this evening and she basically said that we can no longer be friends because of her boyfriend. I told her that I did not want to be around him because it is uncomfortable for me and I don't want to wreck anything for her.

She is the one that said we could not be friends. I have bent over backwards for this child for 8 years. Lets see, in high school I would drive her and her friends around. I would take her boyfriend to night school, I helped her with the typically high school drama. In college, I would go and pick her up from places because she was so drunk. I would pay for ****. Then this past summer she was drunk and lost her car keys and glasses. At the time I was working a graveyard shift and had gotten off work at 3am. She called me at 10...crying. The guy she is with would not help her, even though his place was a 3 minute walk to car. So I drove 30 minutes to pick her pick. Then I had to wait an hour for the tow truck, but then she wanted to eat, I dropped her off at the dealership. Then I headed back to work...she called again very upset because of buying new keys. So, I being a good ******* friend, called the dealership and bought her a new set of car keys. She said thanks, but that was it. For her birthday we would go to the space needle and get a hotel in seattle. For my birthday, she told me to smile.

I dont trust people, and I really opened up to her. Now I have nothing. She told me her worse fear is being alone, and I said, "I live your worst fear everyday of my life!"

I know I am probably coming off like a ***** and I dont mean too, I feel I am a good person with a lot to offer. After our hour long conversation, I even texted her and said, "you should be excited for this, it is a positive life changing event, and I am happy for you." I got nothing back. Of course not...why would I? 


iamfine iamfine
2 Responses Aug 18, 2009

It won't make you feel any better but most friends are at least initially "blown off" once the boy or girlfriend enters the picture...<br />
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Sounds like you're unappreciated and maybe even "used"...not really behaviour you'd expect from a "friend"....What do you think...time for anew friend or two...?

Your friend is a moron. I had a similar experience, and it took me a long time to realise that I was the only one being a friend in that friendship. So, one day I got really tired of it, and after reliving our moments together in my head I just didn't feel like being her friend anymore. We had a petty fight, and it's been six months since we haven't spoken a word to each other. Girls tend to screw you over if you get too friendly or... whatever the reason. I now prefer to hang out with guys. When you get over sexuality, guys are really great friends. Some of them are real jerks if they are your boyfriends, but as friends - there are no better.