>>>>>>>..hate The Person I Camed To Loved >>>>>>>>>

I don't really know were to start , I have been married to my husband for about two years. Most people will consider my marriage as fresh and new, compared to the union of my grandparents who are going on there sixty- nine wedding anniversary. I know that marriage are not perfect because we as humans are not , but working together and showing common love will move any failer in your life to sucess. It's so hard to sit here and write about a marriage that isn't working at the same time trying to figure out were did we went wrong . I know that there is a big age differents between us he's 37 and i'm only 23. I love this man and there is nothing in the world that I wouldn't do for him, I take care of my wife duties as well as my motherly duties.To make life more simply I have been cheated on , lied to and abused emotionally and mentally. He's a selfish individual who only care about himself , who loves being in control towards those around him , he doesn't want to work this out and he is very much disrespectful towards me . The sex life is just as dead as he is. I hate arguing over nothing , I hate fighting to be heard or understood by him and when I need a shoulder to cry on I can't never rely on him. I have to defend for my son as well as myself. I am lonely and always depressed. I want a new beginning, make life more meaningful for my kid. as well as trying to be happy in this complex world .. I want to be seperated from him sh** and only 23 ,I have alot to offer and I'm not going to let a no good , worthless man get in the way of my joy . It's sad to say I hate the man I camed to loved.