I Feel So Alone....

  I find myself wondering why I am even doing this.  Will it make a difference?   Does anybody really care?  I don't know if I will ever find the answers to this question, but I hope that maybe someone out there will understand.

  *sighs*  I don't know exactly where to begin, but all I can say is that sometimes I feel so alone.  I have a family and people that supposedly love me, but for all that its worth...I feel so empty inside sometimes.    I don't understand why I feel like this, why I just feel so lonely...and yet at the same time I am able to hide behind fake smiles and happiness just to appease the people around me.  Is there something wrong with me?  Is my mind or my heart playing tricks on me?  I don't know anymore...I fear that I don't know anything anymore.

I'm not sure when it began, but I know that it has been with me for a long time and I wish I had someone who understood, someone that feels the same way I do.  I don't even know if any of this is making sense to anyone else.    All I know is that the feeling inside me is a mixture of many things.  A never-ending sadness and hurt, mixed with a strange anger.

I know that now I am babbling probably and that no one will ever listen to this, but I hope that someone out there can help me to understand the feeling that are now plaguing me....
sirenofryking sirenofryking
31-35, F
7 Responses Jul 11, 2010

Is not to bad to fell alone sometimes ,I miss a friend who can undestand me but, an times perhaps the person we wish for is araund the corner.I believe in faith,life has a meanning to everyone if someone are looking we may find it if you,have it don't loose Life is full of surprises perhaps again we will find the person in our dreams

I've been there before and probably I'm still there and am still struggling. I know how it feels, the emptiness like there's this big void in ur heart in ur life. Pretty much the same like you, I have family and friends who love me but still feel so empty inside. I'm really sorry that I don't know how to fix this thing. But so you know, there are many people like you here and u're not alone.

Hey as every body saying , every body feel alone some time but i just want to tell you we feel alone because of ourself because we make ourself boring and if you think that every body should have to watch you or every time love you so for tha you should have to make your self like that for example if youi want love so you should have to give the love like(Friends, Family member ) . and feel them i am for you for smiling on your face. i know it is little bit hard but not impossible just do.<br />
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If you don't beleive me so only one time for me just do that thing , if any body ignoring you or not loving you when you availble on there so from the next time when ever any person talking some thing so you too tell some thing , i means to say if he / she saying some thing so say yes you are right or what ever he is doing tell him /her yes me to see that or me too done that or ETC.<br />
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I know it is little bit confusing you but at the end i will sugest you to "SMILE" every time when ever or where ever you are then see how is your life goes and how is your life become like a great lovable person. because you know.......<br />
IF YOU ARE SMILING THEN WHOLE WORLDS WITH YOU OTHER WISE A DROP OF SINGLE TEAR WILL ALSO NOT STAY WITH YOU........ So be smile always , Then see what happend . take care bye.

hi,I understand you. i also feel the same way sometimes. But I kinda know how to control it now.<br />
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It's because of a writer, a really good writer, who talks about life. I learned a lot.<br />
Being lonely is normal. There are so many reasons why we feel that. <br />
I thing the best way to be happy is to appreciate the things around you. If you're lonely because of disappointments in life, heartaches,etc., learn to let go and move forward. look at the brighter side of life. appreciate the positive things around you. even the little ones. By practicing it all the time, along the way, you'll find happiness. Who knows? Just keep going and look at the brighter side.<br />
I wish I can help. :)<br />
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I feel the same. I have friends and family who do care and love me (but don't really know me). I do go out and spend time with my friends quite often and I don't really LIVE alone but I always feel so lonely inside and I feel like i am alone.

i feel the sme exact way, i feel blank. i act blank. its really depressing putting on my mask so my family dosent worry. and i feel comfortable a little around them. i feel like idk hollow and its really sad.. i try and imagine if its like i missed out on something that was supposed to fill this large void and now its too late. i listened to you though =] and yeh i understand

I wish I could help you understand your own feelings, but I can't. All I can tell you is that you're not alone. There are so many people on this site that feel the same as you and me. We're in this struggle together.